Beauty From Pain
This past week has been a rough week.
On Thursday, I found out that a young man from my church - one who I grew up with - died at 20 years old. I was not told how, so my mind was left to race through the possibilities. Of course, the two most common causes of death for young adults are car accidents and suicide - and I was praying it was the former. Later, I got word from friends that the cause of death was the latter - suicide.
Suicide. That word makes me cringe... not only because of its meaning, but because I was so close to committing it myself. This young man's death really hit home with me. It amazes me how many people a suicide - or any death, really - effects. People who didn't know this guy are grieving. It's like Ray posted on September 17th, the effect a death has ripples out to those who didn't even know the person. Sometimes I wonder how life would be different if I was no longer around. Who would my death have effected?
It's sad when any suicide happens, but I think it took one of someone I knew to make me really appreciate the fact that I am alive and those people who helped me through my difficult time.
Val, Josiah, Ryan, Kyle, Rachel, and Greg: Your love and concern for me is what kept me alive, and I am forever grateful to you. I don't know if I will ever be able to thank you guys in person, because I am embarrassed and almost ashamed to have gone through that rough time - but I hope that you all realize how thankful I am to have friends like you.
Psalm 139
On Thursday, I found out that a young man from my church - one who I grew up with - died at 20 years old. I was not told how, so my mind was left to race through the possibilities. Of course, the two most common causes of death for young adults are car accidents and suicide - and I was praying it was the former. Later, I got word from friends that the cause of death was the latter - suicide.
Suicide. That word makes me cringe... not only because of its meaning, but because I was so close to committing it myself. This young man's death really hit home with me. It amazes me how many people a suicide - or any death, really - effects. People who didn't know this guy are grieving. It's like Ray posted on September 17th, the effect a death has ripples out to those who didn't even know the person. Sometimes I wonder how life would be different if I was no longer around. Who would my death have effected?
It's sad when any suicide happens, but I think it took one of someone I knew to make me really appreciate the fact that I am alive and those people who helped me through my difficult time.
Val, Josiah, Ryan, Kyle, Rachel, and Greg: Your love and concern for me is what kept me alive, and I am forever grateful to you. I don't know if I will ever be able to thank you guys in person, because I am embarrassed and almost ashamed to have gone through that rough time - but I hope that you all realize how thankful I am to have friends like you.
Psalm 139
1 Comments:
Maria, I can't tell you how much I appreciate having you as my friend. I always had so much fun hanging out with you, just being myself around you. I hope and pray that healing and peace comes to you and your family.
This sounds so formal, I'm sorry if it doesn't sound like me. This is strange, usually I can express things in writing but I don't really know what to say. You don't need to be embarrassed about anything, we all go through rough things, some things are more rough than others. I wish that I had a friend like you down here that I could hang out with. Thank you for your honesty, I really do love you and let me know if I can ever do anything for you, I'll try my best.
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