She was only Seventeen

The emotional rollercoaster that I have been experiencing these past few months has taken its toll on everything in my life. To put it plainly, my life has sucked.

My grandmother died early September, and not even a week later the guy from my church I blogged about before committed suicide. And as if that wasn't enough, 3 weeks ago my cousin died after spending 6 weeks in the hospital from a cardiac arrest. She was 17 years old.

My cousin's death has affected me more deeply than all the others. I don't understand why God would allow something like this to happen. The only thing that I have found comfort in has been to write down my feelings. I wrote this a few days ago, and it is truly what I am feeling and thinking right now.

It's called "She was only Seventeen"

I trusted You to save her
to heal her from the pain
My confidence in You has been shaken
the dark clouds are pouring rain

Hear my cry
Hear my plea
How long will You hide Your face from me?
Why did this happen?
How can this be?
She was only seventeen

How can this be happening
My world is falling apart
Why does it seem like You are not here
I feel this emptiness in my heart

Hear my cry
Hear my plea
How long will You hide Your face from me?
Why did this happen?
How can this be?
She was only seventeen

Although You did not save her
or heal her from the pain
build my confidence in You
stop the clouds from pouring rain

Hear my cry
Hear my plea
How long will it take until I see
why this happened
and how this could be
because she was only seventeen