Scared

There are days where I wonder, "What the heck am I doing? I just resigned a "secure" job in order to plant a church with no guarantee whether or not it will succeed. I have to raise support to do this....and this economy is not that great." I get scared that we are going to lose our house, our savings (what little we have), etc.... I sometimes worry that the church plant won't grow and that in a year I will be doing who knows what. I sometimes feel that this calling is way over my head and that I am not the "type" of person who can be "successful" in church planting.

Last evening was a time like that. Kim and I talked about it. We prayed about it. One worry was the leadership team meeting last night. I left there at 8:30 and asked John to call me when the meeting and discussion was over. John called last night around 10:30 The leadership team came to a recommendation that they will cover my insurance for 2009 and 2010 which is good...but now needs to go to congregational forum. So that was good but it also made me a little nervous about finding more streams of funding.

Earlier today I thought much the same type stuff...until I called Kim. Kim told me that she just received a call from a person who attends another COB church and chairs the evangelism team. They were given some money from their churches building fund to give to mission projects. It looks pretty good that they will be supporting us...not only that but the woman said that she and her husband want to come to a meals and mission night, learn about the church plant and possibly serve on the core group. (And the husband is a pediatric surgeon).

God is so good and meets us right where we are. These things aren't "in the bank" so to speak but it is awesome to know that when I was unsure and scared God showed up.

Continue to pray for us as we develop a Core Group, seek additional funding streams, and work on the development of Veritas-the Church Plant.